For Jespy and Matt

[kyber]

Jespy in response to your comment on me leaveing.... Well I'm sorry you feel that way.. but never considered myself a hero, and
You see what you don't know is that on sept 27/06 I lost my younger brother, (died of unknown causes) and to this day we still don't know the why and how of his death and may never know the answer to that. He was going to be 41 on the 28. I guess one of the reasons I've had enough with this guild is simplely because I have little left emotionally at the moment to take this kind of thing.. life is far to short to spend time being rude and nasty to others.. and this is what this guild has done.
I guess in part it's easy to forget that on the other end of this machine is another person, with feelings, thoughts and ideas. And it becomes far to easy to be cold and inpersonal to others There is to much hatered in this world already. I don't have the engery left right now to fight against that here to. This goes out to you to Matt
I have never forgotten that this is as you say " just a game" but one aspect of this game is the involvement of other living, breathing people... this game is not just a Frag fest of pixels like Doom or quake. this is in part a comunity of sorts and ones actions do and can effect others... even here Matt... Think about this please! The next time you go to deal with someone that you do not agree with.
It's is not always easy to be diplomatic to others when they are nasty to you... but it takes a lot more guts to deal with them in a polite way then it does to blast away at them.

[<<\\\LordMihnea///>>]

Dear Kyber,

As always your words and intentions are not to be taken lightly due to the simple fact that you've accumulated alot of life's experience that could be considered more than the average person. Your lines moved me, and even thou I am an only child, and virtual written words are worthless, I wish to express my condolences toward your brother's tragedy. As a person that never encountered such a problem like yourself I can't say I know how you feel (like most "fake" people would say, impersonating a Hollywood cliche) but I can put on a psychological scale your trauma. Your emotional wound that has been with you for so long, isn't fully unrepairable. It can be healed at least to a certain point where you won't look at the situation as depressive as before. As a 18 year old teen that doesn't even know how to tie his own shoe laces compared to you, I realize I am in no position to give out suggestions. All I can do, is give you a couple of good intentioned facts that may come to an aid for your troubles. First of all, if I recall you said you had no intention of getting married. Kyber, in time friends come and go, but someone you love, that is there for the better or for worse can "replace" (if it's not too rude), the bad air with a more positive approach. Although I don't know you personal besides like you said from "the other end of this Internet wire", no matter what kind of person you can be, I'm pretty much sure there is always a person in this world (if that isn't to generalist) that can match your requirements. All you have to do is have will power. Going to work everyday wasting and being surrounded by an echo in the house isn't the best medicine. Because that echo will often tell you your worst memories over and over again. This is my one advice. I would tell you more but, I decided to pick the best one I had in my bag of goodies and give it to you . Also, regarding the verbal confrontations the people around you had in this virtual environment are natural things that are bound to occur. The human mind is still evolving. Yet our primitive aspects tend to manifest themselves often from time to time without noticing it. The truth is a person feels relieved when releasing negative vibes toward his sibling. This is caused by his natural lust for destruction. Yes, it sounds far fetched. But look at our global society. For instance. Nuclear technology was created to make our life easy and efficient. But in the end we decided to nourish our curiosity and drop nuclear warheads on Japan. Which despite their doings at Perl Harbor, they didn't deserve it. I could go on about this for ages, but there is no need too since we talked about this long ago if you hopefully recall. So maybe you could try your luck with my advice. And see of this anti-sober antidote called love actually works. I'm to young to understand, so you'd be doing me a favor by confirming it .


Yours truly and respectfully,

Mihnea Ghiculescu

PS. I don't know what or how you still judge me but I'd like you to read this letter exactly how it is. With no misinterpretations. It has no literal hidden messages or cheesy ideas connected to it. Also Id like to underline that this letter is addressed to you and you only. The reason I posted it, was to sympathize the tradition I had to talk here. And if Chaotica will delete/move it then I'll personally mail it to you.

[Jespy]

Kyb you got right,


Sorry that I sayd that you wasn't a hero now i see it from the other side so you truely are one that you go threw after you lost your bro man that is being a hero I really don't mean what i said every where is hate look more at bright side of live! I almost know how it feels cuz mi grandmother died 1 year ago on cancer it was horrible she died slowly and with a strong mind she could hear what we said she wanna be even good for us and try to gif us candy!

Mi Appolocige to you Kyb.

[Syfer]

I'm so sorry for your loss buddy ... I know what it's like to lose someone ... I lost my grandpa a couple years ago. I don't know you're particular type of situation but I do understand losing a loved one. I was really close to him and will miss him dearly. You have my deepest condolences.